open and down
low and private
i know why not to feel sad when you leave
i know why i need to see you go
i know why i need to keep busy while you're away
i know why it bothers me
(i know a hundred reasons, actually)
i just wish i knew you understood

i strengthen my belief
and suck up the fear
my hands are shaking as i panic to pretend
this time i wont let you see or hear or feel

i just want to apologize
i just want to change
i just
i just...

i'm guilty
..of being down
"cuz i can never get enough, of love." - c.crows